Daily Share 40 (disc)
I said "tomorrow I'm gonna be productive and not play any videogames!" And my body said "haha remember the herniated disc that hasn't really hurt you in months though?"
I made it to therapy but I've been stuck laying down since then. So of course I'm gaming. Back on Coral Island for hours.
Aleve hasn't helped very much but that's sorta to be expected when your herniated disc is pushing on your nerves 🙃 Nate has been the most amazing supportive husband ever, which is unsurprising but so massively appreciated. I haven't done a thing.
This is the one thing that makes me scared to have a second child. I want one so badly. I feel like our family would be more complete. I want Erica to experience having a sibling. I want to meet another little angel. But this pain has no rhyme or reason to it. I didn't do anything unusual. I've been maintaining like I'm supposed to. It just hurts anyways. How am I supposed to carry a pregnancy to term with this going on in my back? What if I have a second kid and it makes it worse, and I can't be the mother my children need? The child I have now? She deserves better than today, already.
So much to weigh. Gonna wait til I'm not actively hurting to weigh it. Farming on my steam deck for now.