Daily Share 36.2 (uncertain)
I'm gonna try putting words after share numbers so they're more distinct I guess
Rn and for the past couple of days I have been battling with uncertainty about my performance as a mother. I think this happens pretty cyclically. I spend time doing something for myself a lot for a couple days and get worried I'm neglecting my girl. This time it's been gaming, and most of it has been when she's asleep, but I still wonder. Should I wake her up to play with her? Am I playing with her enough when she's not asleep or am I too busy tryna stuff her face or clean up or write or whatever and not spending enough time just being with her? Or do I spend too much time with her? She does cry when I'm not around pretty hard sometimes, but other times she seems quite independent.
This performance anxiety and uncertainty is something I've struggled with in a lot of work situations before, so it makes sense that I'd see similar in parenthood, but it sure is challenging. All the growing I have to do is daunting.