Motherhood is
Last updated 3 months, 4 weeks ago
An insane amount of realizations and situations, including but not limited to
Earnestly laughing back and forth with my kid for no reason other than to hear her laugh, reveling in the fact that she's doing the same thing and feeling the same feeling
"...does she seem sleepy to you??"
Giving up a little because there will always be another cheerio on the floor
Laughing at my friend earnestly picking up pieces of snacks Erica dropped hours ago, as if I just missed them, but actually it's the above
Picking distinctly bagel bits out from between my kid's toes six hours after she ate the bagel in her car seat in an entirely different building like how tf is there still bread in there child
Wondering if I'm the first person to nurse my kid in front of the panel of monet's water lilies at the Carnegie museum of art...
Considering going back and doing it again cuz I'd almost certainly be the first person to do it twice, right?
Why does it matter? I couldn't tell you, but it's fun
Finally caving and putting a bandaid and Neosporin on the gaping bite on my nipple, so now I'm worried I'll fail my daughter trying to feed her on only one titty and the solids she deigns to eat
Wondering why tf baby food is all so fire and why my baby doesn't wanna eat it when it is straight up delicious
Realizing that baby hairs are no longer baby hairs because they're small, they're now baby hairs because my baby ripping them outta my head is why they're so small
Being ten months in and already tired of my kid's sass even though the only words she knows are mama and dada and AAAAAAAAAAA
Also feeling really insecure about being tired of my kid's sass
Having been afraid of becoming even slightly overweight my entire life suddenly seeming really vain and dumb, and realizing the lil pooch I'm getting from the stress of life and mothering is kinda super beautiful... But also still being insecure about it too
Realizing my daughter is going to know I'm just a super flawed human being, and wanting more than ever to be someone worth being proud of... And realizing that even with all my flaws, right now, when my daughter is screaming and I pick her up, she stops.
Corralling my child with my feet and legs so I can use my hands to eat without her falling off the couch - no matter how ridiculous it gets
Realizing I was born when my kid was born
Really seeing my mom for the first time
Too much coffee, not enough sleep, and it's my own fault
Eating little feet because they look delicious and my kid giggles when her toes are in my mouth
Watching my child kick her poopy diaper, wiping her foot clean with a wipe that is 99% water, and feeling slightly ill about the above (and knowing I'll still end up doing it 😭)
Knowing I'm in the middle of literally the most important thing I'll ever do, no pressure tho
More things to come